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Fashion photographer, illustrator and writer based in London, navigating the world of adulthood through BPD recovery, fitness and self employment.

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August 10, 2018August 10, 2018

Growing up is hard to do.

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One of, if not the most exhausting thing about living with cptsd/bpd is how quickly your mood can change. One of the biggest factors of why it used to take me so long to recover from an episode when I was first diagnosed is because I was riddled with guilt that if I didn’t stay in my depressive slump that people would think I was lying. That somehow I was a fraud and people would go “oh see, she’s on a night out, she’s at the gym, she’s posting on social media, so she must be fine”. It is common across all areas of mental health to feel guilt and almost like you need to prolong the episode to prove you weren’t lying. Not to revel in it, but due to fear. And you know what, it’s completely okay to wake up not actually feeling suicidal and bounce out of bed after a month/week or even just a day of those dark intense emotions. There is nothing shameful about allowing yourself to have good days, despite what you think others may say. ✌🏻 Ps. I also got one of those hangovers where you think you’re fine and then you ain’t but you are but you ain’t. 😴

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